...the impossible...

...f a yard god...lemme see a hundred grand... -represent, illmatic, nas

...impossible...?...

...the house, the car, the village, the cooperatives, the L's full of ancient herbals, without a flame, the leaves rolled into bless, the tic-tocs, ashtanga, pashasana, bekasana, pinchamyurasana vinyasa, utita hasta into virabadrhasana 3 into half moon into bow... the ganges, himalaya, rishikesh, mysore once a year...couple months... re-up on Source...on yogi path... thank u for the no's shut doors from the babylon yoga studios... they are important too... but my path is the Real... and Real recognize Real ... not for sale... offering You path... and asking/accepting your offerings...

...cooking up vegan and raw live food brownies, sprouted red velvet cakes, pad thai, curry cauli rice, for You... for You to be Your Highest... i see You... Real talk...

...the herbal blends in every coffee shop, every cafe... to talk with You, to be in salat (connection)... before asking for Your hand in Always...

...the herbal oils for your pain... i feel You... deep, Real deep...

...the bodywork to channel the touch of isa, the resurrection, the Love You Higher... the touch of metamorphosis...

...making medicines with You for You... at the apothecary... the jars full of ashwaganda and shatavari...  powdered broccoli and cauli...

impossible is traveling with my herbal medicines and having them in every cafe and herbal store/apothecary... and being able to offer the medicines to my clients after our bodywork sessions... and seeing them for full on panchakarmas and actively going through one panchakarma after another... a few times a day... with so many clients that there are waiting lists, and collaborative staff to handle logistics... and High Frequency courses for folk to align with Higher Self through writing, teas, meditation, movement, and cooking and eating together to align with the cosmos...

...impossible is being razor sharp in my focus and taking the steps to do this daily...building on the previous day... falling in alignment... working without working in the way of the dao...wu wei...

...the challenge at this juncture is to make herbals that work... having a space to do this in... a kitchen... a game plan to leave the city... to be in it p/t... but a viable plan to be self-sustainable, a structure that allows me to be in Work, wherever i Am... through yogi ayurvedic High Frequency medicine...

...moment of clarity...

...a few months back, while i was at my boy's place helping him declutter, i asked for a scraper...

...ask n u will receive... he said...

...just a couple days after this, someone told me: be careful what you ask for... 

...i'm sure you've heard both statements... they are popular idioms, cliche, at this point... but they held great significance for me at these moments in my life... especially a couple years after i attended a lecture by an islamic scholar on knowing how to ask the 1ness (ALLAH) for what you seek...

...rumi tells us, what You seek is seeking You...

...the speaker of the lecture said that to ask means, requires, that you know what you want... 

...i've been receiving this lesson over and over... i do find that things i ask for, whether verbalized or not, occur... including self-destructive visions which manifest from a place of self-doubt, self-loathing, confusion...

...for me... the concept of keeping it real has meant to eschew that which i've visualized as evil - money - and those who gold rush - regardless of how this means selling themselves...

...thing with babylon is that it makes you value selling yourself - because it panders to our desire to show off, to be at the center of attention, to be narccississtic to get people to like us, follow us - the leader complex...

...i want to do the work, but not be at the center of attention, not be in the limelight, not be a personality... just want to do the Work... and what does the Work look like? what do i visualize?...

... in the most imminent sense... make the herbal blends that i can give to my clients who i touch, who i shift shape with, physiologically and energetically, to draw out their anandamyakosha, to heal their vinjanamya and manamya kosha - the emotional bodies... to do this to support me in doing the physical and energetic work on them in between... and growing this work i do with family members and friends... with others who need it...

...in chef-ing up dishes, i've come to understand how important aesthetic is... but also, conversely, how important the right combinations, the right formulation, the right foods are... meaning... aesthetics should be prostrate to the inner energetics of the food and not the other way around, as is the case in babylon cullinary presentations... as babylon reminds us: image is everything...

... so where do i make these formulations? i need to commit to a space that i rent and work out of and herbs that i can keep somewhere - where?... how do i get the herbs there?...

...so foremost is belief... genuine strength and faith in your offering... do you believe in what you are making? in what is in them? in the way you are going about it? in it's ability to heal to be transformative? ... if so... then commit... get what you need and put it all together... it will Work out, because You Are coming from a genuine place... you are not a salesman... You Are in the space of supporting those in your life that you work with to Connect...

...do it... now... Quietly... ALLAH IS INFINITE... do it because it needs to be done in the fork You Are in to the next stage...

...letting go of clutter to invite urgency...

...if we are creatures of circumstance, than what we spend our time doing is a result of the circumstances we place ourselves or find ourselves in... 

...and if these habits you formed, these ways of being... are not serving your Higher Purpose, and instead feeding your lower self, than you may want to reconsider what you are doing, and place yourself in different circumstances...

...how?... 

...replace the ingredients in your food with High frequency foods... so when you goto eat, you are required to choose from whole plant based foods... 

...set a publishing date for an event that will highlight the Work you need to do, because life Purpose requires it... 

...work backwards, and see who else is interested in collaborating with you at every step... babylon keeps us in a state of distrust and separation... 

...the only way to Know ALLAH is through the 1ness, which is you and you and you - so collaborate... 

... if it's really about your Purpose, and spirit requires you to Actualize, than do it without hesitation, without doubt, without worry of failing, falling, rejection... 

...regardless of all the no's you get... find a way... you will... if it is Real... meaning, if it is not driven by ego, and selfishness, and getting yourself out there because you seek glory, when Glory belongs only to the Glory...

...declutter... if you have too much going on... you will never get anything done... you will always be in a state of clutter... so let go of that which is not serving You... this includes being deliberate and discriminate about who you surround yourself with... this doesn't mean cutting heart strings off... but just knowing that, in this form of human, you are limited by the body,  so Know that you can and will remain connected with them in that which is not limited - the spirit... so don't think of it as a cutting off, but as a prioritizing, as a way to make space for others who can grow you in Your Purpose...

...who can grow you in Your Purpose... those who are on the path of Truth... this may look deeply different from yours, and they may create discomfort for you, but the point is not to cut off people because they make you feel uncomfortable, or challenge your complacency, but because they disrespect your time and worth and consume you in ways that heightens your lower self... 

...it's essential to declutter, to let go... and when doing this with folks in your life, do it with the utmost compassion and Love, and suppleness... and transparency... without fear... as whatever consequence it leads to is Real... 

... you may also want to declutter habits that keep you stuck, in a space of complacency, away from the Work... how? evaluate how you are spending your day, and this may mean reassessing even what you may think is positive... i.e. my yoga practice is deep and is hours... but am i making the best use of my time in it...? ... is it serving the Work i need to do? ... is it growing me towards You? ... am i growing or staying complacent, mediocre, status quo?... if so... how do i make better use of my time on the mat?...

...some possibilities are: i can re-design my practice to serve my goals of reaching Higher... i can then execute it using resources like alarms, to ensure i am being mindful of my use of time in working towards my goals... i can do this with my medicine making, and cooking as well ... and i can set publishing dates for these areas to ensure Height... to heighten urgency... to extract Work...