...today...tonight... didn't see it coming... didn't map it like i usually do... saw suggestions of it last week, when the moon appeared to be growing...
...then clouds... thoughts...confusion...shrouding my mind... where is my mind...?...
...this 2019... this first full moon of 2 0 1 9... this... i walk out of the circle that i've been running in... i leap off the gerbil wheel... the one that i hopped on from the other ferris wheel... job, security, summers off, insurance... union... hopped off thinking i would magically be manifested into Purpose...
...haven't been... have been hidden... haven't been of service to You...
...so what has to change is sharing it all... monetizing it all... making a living... get a house... a wife... a car... you can have the house the dog and the car!!! - old school r & b song... sing along... you can have the house...
...jesus tells us to build houses in heaven... ALLAH tells us the formula to do this - to do what were set here to do - Be in a state of worship - how?...
...worship happens through doing good deeds... good deeds the prophet tells us happens through Work and Working with Worship... Work is Worship...
...but jesus reminds us not seek fame in this Work of service... as what your left hand gives, your right hand should not know about... that's how deep Your Connection should be... ALLAH reminds us that if we are seeking Glory, Glory belongs to ALLAH alone...
...so get clear on your what... what is it that you are offering...? but don't spend all month/week/day on this... just get clear on this... and then Know why... why are you offering what you are offering?... why do you do yoga therapy?... if it is misaligned from the equation to bring Glory to 1ness... beyond you... then revise your goal to be in ALLAHment...
...this past winter solstice... a deep journey between exodus matthew surah: yunus and the second and third teachings of krsna in the bhagavat gita... the meeting of prophets and prophecy... to be in complete Surrender (islam)... because arjuna that which is, always will be... so you neither kill nor are killed... and of course arjuna is torn by the family in the battlefield... but...
...we are each in our own battlefield... so long as we are separate... and babylon doesn't have to build ore of the border walls they already have up... we already have them constructed... they are our sense of separation...
... how are you doing it differently... what has changed? what has stayed the same?...
...i believe i want to change the story from same to vastly different... to what has changed... so as to be in Surrender to my Work... as this was the intention for this earth cycle/revolution...
...the question is what is the same in relation to walking back... into abbu's telling me to walk back...
the answer is financial margins... of being scattered... between places... sleeping in my parents apartment... constantly coming back here... not being in a deep and meaningful relationship... not having a family... not having a home... writing but not publishing... yoga-ing but not educating or teaching yoga... writing novels, completing primary and most of intermediate but no one benefiting it but me...cooking but not sharing my meals... meaning not having a monetary transaction...and as a result, not having exchange with others... as the market place is where exchange happens... so what has to change then is clear...
...share with others in exchange for currency... single-minded... see it through... and the put it out... focus on what you are not focused on... get it out... publish (public-ize)... and distro - widely - like a mantra... has to be what you believe.... comm unity...
