...tarot... knight of wands... 9.23.19...

...in the name of ALLAH...

...knight... in some decks the prince... the next in line... the heir to the throne... but me too... i'm next too... i hear my sisters say... indeed... rulership reins from compassion... mercy... is this missing in leadership... what would the prophet of Peace have said about the ottoman's, mughal's, etc. about the Kings who had concentrated authority when he himself denied himself this...

...models... who are yours?...

...the knight delivers... offers a message... what message needs to be sent from you to others...?... the knight defends... what needs defending in your life...?... the knight approaches with urgency... what is the message you have that needs urgent attention... that the world must know... that you are willing to defend to the death of You... because it is not about you... seven generations...

...how you can you incorporate the magic you hold... Creativity... spirit... intuition... all the Creative flow that the wands carry....

...as a defender of Your Truth... which You alone Know... You recognize that it is a spiritual Truth... from a deeper place and to manifest it be as unrealistic as it Is...

...if you notice there are no numbers here... the royal suite has none... the kings, queens, knights, pages... 4 x4... 16 royal figures... the Royal family...

...trees... rivers... winds... species... the Royalty that allows us to be... how are we engaged with being knights for this Royalty... how do we defend/protect/Love our earth....?... zero waste is one way...

...in starting on this path of going deeper in reducing my role as culprit of enemy of the earth... i've noticed that some items i use a bunch are paper towels/napkins... and the wooden sticks to stir my matcha... i also seem to be without a plan to recycle... so not addressing the bottles and accumulation i already have... go through... i.e. the apple cider vinegar bottle that i just finished...

...lesson in this... have a plan... systems for these things... this way... habits... re-engineering... that's what this is... a rebirth...

...wands are the element of fire... of transformation... in being a defender... a Knight... in being Royal... i am reminded of the words of my cuzin... to break through the boundaries... he watched/witnessed a snake emerge from him... and noticed it shedding its skin... in the process rebirthing... re-Be-coming... drive the wand through... burn through... blessed fall equinox...

...the knight holds the magician's wand... fumbles forward with what he knows... integrates all that he has learned to be in the thick of practice... operates from a place of Spiritual Truth so that it is just as absurd in what unfolds... just as: flying machines - airplanes... drones... cars.... aircondition... elevators... etc... putting Your leg behind your head... all Are... 

...tarot: jugement 9.22.19...

...judgement... when it comes... when the day arrives... when the horn is blown and your body arises to be in the face of your Maker... when you are asked how you spend your time... what will you say?...

...what did you do today?... my dad asked... last year... last summer... the usual i said... let me here it, he said... yoga practice... cook... siesta... cafe... latte... write...

...had a vision of you... my dad said... you in a conversation with God... God asked you how you spent your day... and you said what you told me... yoga... you foolish man, God responded...

...mmmn... yes... makes sense... every one who has ever meant anything to me... beyond a thought... beyond emotion... has lived lives that were profoundly transformative to others... gandhi... che guevera... malcolm x... huey p... arundhati roy... my dad... my mom... my brother... they have all been in selfless service to community... my grandfather... the one who has been an inspiration to walk this path... knowing of his stories... he held clinic... his fellow sufi medicine men in lucknow told him that he can't charge for this Work... but he has to do it...

...there are people who take a single aromatherapy course and fly with it... go deep... others like myself try to study everything under the sun... and stay in a state of not doing... do... do it now... Quietly... the Work is needed...

...judging myself... how do you judge yourself...?...

...in the card... judgement day... the angel recalls the dead to our original state - naked... what will your hands and feet testify...?... what will the earth you walked on testify?...

...how do you change your destiny?... how do you shape it?... so that it is aligned...?... Aligned... ALLAHment... Walk... Work... in the name of ALLAH the Most Compassionate... the Most Merciful...

...the judgements bring me to my moon intention this past month... to walk back... to learn how to do it different... how i would've done it different 10, 20 years ago... when i was hanging out all the time... or wishing to... chasing... wanting to go to the party... vintage clothes shopping... standing in front of the mirror... going through outfits... instead... meaningfulness... through Work... through the writing... giving it my all... now... in the past ten... it has been the screen... it has been taking classes... education... but a lot of it in a vacuum... a lot of it without meaning... and some of it deeply profound in meaning... now its time for me to go hard in my offering... and by doing... sharing... and by sharing... learning... and by learning... teaching others...

...offer the Work through making the medicines... blends... etc... and do the Work... the Work will lead to the teaching... the Work is to meditate... to bow to the moon and sun... but more importantly whats behind it... to hold clinic... to have a space to do this... to do the yoga and inspire... to cook and inspire... how?... through mediums available now... 

...tarot... 8 of cups... 9.19.19...

...in the name of the 1ness, Brahma, ALLAH, The Great Mystery... all praise is due...

...prophets retreated... into the cave... meditated... received word from beings invisible to the 3-dimensional eye... received Guidance...

...the 8 of pentacles... the man... a cobbler... craftsman... bhastrika pranayam... this man has retreated from the town he hails from... under a tree... like siddhartha...gautama... buddha... but he is engaged in understanding the mundane... in being of use to himself family kids wife...

...wait till i get my money right!!!... and he is... he chips away... 5 pentacles lining the tree... 2 below him... he works... and immediately sees the fruits of his labor...

...in the name of...

...pentacles... stacking... but are you hoarding...?... have you retreated and gotten guilty...?... i know enough people who have... Love to them... they are mirrors... what do i see in them that hurts?... that they are stingy... that they have loads and they pinch... they are not sharing... are bottom feeders... they suck off others...

...then there are those who play it safe... they made just a little bit... got that change... the minimum wage... and they hide... hoard... keep it like their job will go tomorrow... that there belongings will burn and they will need to hold on to it... or flames... or homelessness...

...i see you.... because i see myself... what are you doing with what you have?... how are you upping the ante?... are you taking risks...?...

...after your retreat... after you have made your money... go out there and invest in you... by investing in others... by feeding them... feeding their soul... by giving... by Giving... by not pinching... by spending... by walking your values... go in and Reach out...

...tarot... king of wands...

...wands... fire... transformation... to be a king of this level of drive... ambition... desire... passion... ego...

...what is at the forefront of your desire... of your spiritual motivation... purpose?...

...who can you enroll/recruit... to collaborate... to actualize Your Truth... as the king does not just labor himself but delegates...

...my realization today... as i sit in the space of a king... is to wave a wand and be in an herbal apothecary cooperative... collectively owned... where i offer medicine... touch... movement... food... breath... habits... courses... community...

...the wand i wave allows me to see that i have put lifetime into these esoteric ancient traditions not to develop a hobby but because of belief in the ancient ways in the ancient math... as taught by the prophet muhammad and as such deeply demonized... practice and share the teachings of the prophet w/o mention of his name, of islam, of the qur'an... and people will be amazed at its genius - intermittent fasting... fasting and revering the full moon... marking your days by the moon... bowing the monkey mind down in Surrender to gaze with the heart... to be reminded of the brevity of this existence in this realm... etc etc... oh yes... makes complete sense... mention where it comes from ... mention who said it... and pathology...

...the wand i wave is from the throne... without fear... with Love... and unconcerned about the stones that are cast... jesus warned his true followers that persecution was inevitable in walking in the footsteps of the One...

...cast your wand... see what is within Reach... what you are here to do... not fantasize... wake up and do...

...herb of the week... mullein...

...it sat calm, matter of fact, as if growing between squares of concrete within the industrial part of astoria, queens, was totally natural...

...i held the mullein leaves... felt its soft embrace... said mullein... a whisper... letting her know i saw her... recognized her... was paused by her beauty... all praise is due...

...mullein leaves are thick, shaped like the ears of a rabbit... velvet in texture... like the velvet rabbit...

...it is known... i know it for its demulcent qualities... it's presence in bronchial/asthma/cough formulas... in smoke blends to soothe the lungs...

...during an herb walk in central park, yesterday, a fellow herbalist conclusively said how smoking mullein is great for your lungs... reminded me of 1ness... of seeing myself... a mirror... made me cringe a little.. in witnessing this blanket-statements side of myself... made me thankful to hear him... to remind myself to avoid speaking in definite... as the medicine i practice constantly reminds me... there is no definite...

...mullein has deep roots... and as such, draws a great deal of nutrition from the earth... i wonder what this looks like in a soil perturbed area like the streets of ny...

...the leaves can be squeezed, or slightly blanched and placed on areas that need increased circulation... this includes legs and writs... for conditions like varicose veins... according to the eclectics...

...the roots can be tinctured or decocted, and used for conditions like rheumatoid arthritis...

...tarot: the Lovers... 9.13.19...

...i Am a Lover... Your Lover... Love You... Love You to death... heard that?... do you?...

...who is your Lover...?... what are you willing to die for?... is it out of love or out of the limbic system sense of survival... someone attacks a family member... you react... are you reactive in your "love"... do you get flowers and chocolates after you've been reprimanded... after the words crash glass...?...

...Love... the Lover is proactive... the Lover does without being asked... asks for nothing back... trues... gives it his/her All... what are you giving you all into...?...

...the tarot card... in the traditional ryder-waite deck shows a naked man and woman facing us... standing apart... their arms slightly out and hands open... like the anatomical stance... the woman slightly looks above... towards the celestial figure who emerges before the sun... wings adorn him... this angel... angel raphael... has he hands open and facing down... as if casting a spell a blessing to the Lovers below... the Lovers stand on a plain.... flat... a mountain in the b.g... the forbidden apple tree of eve behind the woman... a snake coiling the tree... behind the man is a tree of flames like roses on a stem... 12 of them... 12 months... 12 signs of time and space... going through eternity... Lovers are blessed for eternity by eternity as they have chosen Love... what are you choosing?...

...what do you see here...?...

...what is the role of Love in Your relationships...

...the Lover ares blessed... Lovers Are when they are Lovers... others see the wide-eyedness of their Love... and if they arrive from Love bless them... haters will hate... se la vie...

...their nakedness is innocent... and the Love they are bound in is more than lust-deep... it is held and blessed by the universe itself...

...the Lovers are in a space of invested time instead of spent time... they are not just in a wasteland... but deeply Connecting to each other in a divine way... they are not just drinking and smoking... they are in nature... they are not just wrapped around each other but seeking divine blessings...

...what is the role of Love in Your Life...?... how does this show up in your beliefs vs actions?...

...the Lovers afford you an opportunity to consider time well spent vs spent... time invested... vs spent... look back... to gain a hold of the next steps... look back this full moon to see how it went...

...when you look back... make changes... in the Way of the Lover.... what would the Lover have done... 7 years ago when i left my job.... instead of investing in a writing program i went to a worker coop space and wrote... spent every day doing this for close to 6 months... the Lover - the liberated me would've embraced the course... not thought of the money... embraced the challenge without considering disappointment... the Lover would've learned from this and sought out teachers/mentors writing programs... the Lover would've went the mile to study with them... the Lover would've joined organizations focused on writing - magazines, writing programs... to edit, write, volunteer... when the Lover left for india... he would've stayed longer... leaving for nepal or sri lanka for a few weeks... renewed his visa and came back to india... as his heart told him... the Lover would've came back and started sharing his knowledge... sharing what he has learned... holding seminars... partnering... he would've gone deeper through the practice... done it from a place of need and not product...

...he would've Connected with those who were doing something similar and tried to build and if it didn't work... he would've upped the ante... as greta the young Warrior from sweden has done... going to environmental groups and meeting with them and when it didn't work... when they were more talk then walk... she upped the ante...

...how do you use the lessons of the past...?... what are the lessons?...

...for me... the lesson is to listen to my heart and not my budget... the lesson is to  try... to do the Work... and see what happens... to not worry about the product...

...the lesson is...

...tarot: page of cups...9.8.19...

...the page stands before the sea... waves... ripples... tides perhaps...a sign may lie in the fish that appears to be coming out of his cup... what is the sign?...

...no one could've predicted it... the three days into the future of sept 11 2001... perhaps some could've... what did tarot readers of the time say? astrologers?... those who claim to know things before hand?...

...sept 8th... tarot... a way to look into self... into patterns...

...page... i was a library page for years... shelving books... retreating into the stacks... imagining reading all the books... getting giant in knowledge... in knowing everything... the page in the emblem in the books we stacked was a mohawk indian... bowing... to a renassaince era woman...

...no one but One...

...the page carries out local duties... administrative work that needs to get done... that requires some manual labor some intellect...

...the page in water the symbolism of the cup... a bearer and embodying water... intuition... feelings... emotional landscapes... what are yours...?... the cup gives rise to a fish... an unexpected occurrence... unusual... creative... scary...

...where Love lies... fear is close... hence the constant reminder to fear the 1ness in al Qur'an... the fear is the trepidation you experience with a new lover...  the longing... the uncertainty... the being in an ocean drifting and yet breathing...

...how can you draw newness into your life?... how can you be more in a state of butterflies???... what will surprise you?...

...you may believe surprise cannot be constructed... but what if i told you it can...?... what if i told you that if you put yourself in the circumstance... surprise is inevitable... embrace the fear... he scariness... it will happen...

...putting out the novel... the High Frequency diet for an elevated world to communicate with worm holes... seasonal foods... organic... from the c.s.a...

...taking orders...

...the school...

...the marriage...

...the house...

...the tour...

...it will happen... if you set the date... make the announcement... book the parts involved... surprise...!!!... 

...tarot... 7 of wands... 9.5.19...

...don't give up... Work... and Work will grow You... tall... Real tall... as is seen by the guy thrusting the 7th wand into the earth... staking his claim... defending his rights... rising to the occasion of battle...

...he is towering over the land and mountains... all of nature is dwarfed by his prominence... the wands match his stature... they are big... he embraces the battleground... prepared to fight... he is doing it big... why?...

..."unless you are helping others in some way, you are wasting your time"... how are you helping?... what are you contributing?... how is it bringing greater Love and balance to our world?.. is this helping you...?... maybe for a second?... how can i be of greater help to You...?...

...my aunties ask me for advice on yoga, and food, and herbs, and meditation... for their ailments... perhaps booklets... chap-style books that are downloadable and easily accessible... are there grants for this...

...the number seven... seven wands... divinity ... divine intervention... how are you Connecting with the Divine...?... how Are you tapping in?...

...are you at a crossroads...?... are you often?... what decision are you putting off that will take you to the next level?... the man in the card wears 2 different shoes... he has been in conflict, internal turmoil... this is the moment of clarity... of taking a stance... he does...

...when you take a stand for what you believe... you up the ante on the battle... you leave your dormancy... you arise and now must also be prepared to take on new challenges...

...make the decision... do it now... Quietly... You Are a Warrior... whatever comes will come...