the goal card this month to Connect with my Higher Self is the Queen of Cups...
this is a doubly feminine card, as it embodies the queen, who often plays a background role to the King, but in many ways represents are internal self, as the moon does in astrology. The cups signify emotion, and the queen of cups may be the ball bearer of emotion, as she holds a trophy size cup while sitting on her throne. The throne signifies her regality and it appears to be sitting on the sea itself, so that she is at once floating and defying gravity, by placing gravity in her heart and reflectiveness - compassion.
what kept me from my Higher Self this past month, was the inability to really ask questions to understand someone else's perspective. This was me going deeper in empathy, but instead of just being able to accept that someone else has a context, it was for me to grow deeper in their context. Instead, my ego got in the way of asking and really seeking to understand. The queen offers me the opportunity to prioritize being reflection and receptive, receiving others with welcome and gratitude - you're here, i'm pleased, thank you - making others feel welcome not as a show, but by going deeper in being empty and a house that can receive. the queen then signifies my ability to be empty and receive in order to more genuinely ask questions without an ego attachment and Listen and hold space.
week 1 in this moon cycle is the five of swords who stands fearlessly on the battlegrounds even as others have abandoned their post, he holds the sword of his own and another, watching others depart into the sea, while remaining steadfast like arjuna. This first week I will go deeper in equanimity - in the Spirit of duty and responsibility without attachment to outcome or applause. I will tap into receptivity by doing it as a duty, a responsibility, an action and not a passive intention. i will act on being receptive and listening by taking action, i.e. on getting a place, on selling things i no longer need, on packing the car, on cooking with Love, on completing my zines, on selling my teas, on making a livelihood with the medicine i sit on, on posting on instagram. being receptive this weeks means acting - taking action on my duties
week 2 night of pentacles: this week i will prioritize the reception to currency and building on my duties and heart by clearing a road for receiving abundance through the march ahead in setting the foundation for family, home, and Work.
week 3 the devil: this week i will pay attention to how my ego may get in the way of me being receptive to the needs of others and my Self, by transforming my Work to be heart-centered instead of driven by money and ego and fame, etc. i will be receptive to holding space for others in a way that is not about me doing something for them, but instead being a place for them to find salvation.
week 4 wheel of fortune: this week i will use my receptiveness to take risks, Tuning in to what type of risks I will need to take to grow my Love my Reception and sharing this with others in a way that is viable for me and them and grows peace and worship to the One... Trusting the whole time that I will be cared for.
