long night short day...longer spells of scheme between the unassuming north pole and the perpetually-scheming collective ego of a narcissistic species - human beings...
...if it were up to us humans, we would tell the earth to drift, to take off from this orbit, to "be free", to be independent, to not be cast by the authoritarian requirements of this solar system...we would say that you are your own person earth, you no longer have to be bound by these communist principles that the solar system subjects you to...why be shrouded by these primitive cave-dwelling ideas that keep you oppressed...
...of course those who Know would say otherwise, even as they sit in jail for Knowledge, even as they are being water-boarded and forced fed, even as they are being decimated and yet spoken of as a threat by the murderers (blood is on your shoulder - kill i today, you cannot kill I tomorrow -buju banton) who control what we see, hear - think...unless...if only you would think, the Recitation (Qur'an) reveals...
...the threat is real...the indigenous way...the way of community - tribes, gatherings of people who bow down in worship like the sun moon and planets, are a threat to the uber-individualism of a f-the- world vulture-capitalist world, where everyone rationalizes how they are contributing to the common good by commodifying anything and everything...i got that good air kid, just $30 for 5 minutes will get you a days worth of oxygen...
...i pass, but not like magic or dr. j or pipen...
...i learned this week that Source is infinite. in practice. meaning that more than a slogan, ALLAH is infinite.
this means that what you/i have to give is without limit, there is no emptying of this reserve, when you are dealing with Truth.
Truth after-all has no bounds...thus drain the oil reserves, water supplies, pine trees...the earth will survive...but we, the pathogens, the destructive microbes will self-destruct...
...sim taught me this when he told me i need to be more public, less hidden in my yoga, herbs, writings...share...he was always giving...he had no qualms asking for an exchange, for money, not in a way that was sleazy, but in a way that honored you, that made you realize you were worth putting money into and there were clear lines to maintain in supporting this...hmmm...he is a mentor...someone i'd like to learn more from in this path...
...i feared sharing...i feared giving up that which was sacred for what would happen to it, as if somehow i was the owner of it, as if somehow i controlled it...
...so let go of trying to control that which you do not own...let go...surrender to your gifts and give with Love and what will be taken and obscured and commodified and repackaged will not be Truth, not be gandhi or malcolm or al hajj or jesus or muhammad...their truths remain
...even when che was made a t-shirt and iron-on and hat...his truth continued to inspire movement for change...kill i today you cannot kill I tomorrow...
...there is selling out...that's real. but i don't have to sell out...exchanging in the market place doesn't mean selling out...and there is no end...only new beginnings...
...winter solstice 2016...jesus, the symbol of the sun...the sun of God, lays low on the southern crux, dead...the lull remains for 3 days, like a full moon that is the14th 15th and 16th of every month...resurrection on the 3rd day...longer days...
...2016 passes like a cloud in portland, unseen and hidden in rain...
this winter solstice, as lifetimes sink, as i shed this coat to grow into my new soof shawl, i am a poet of medicine, healing the pained, getting focused, getting Closer...
...my goal is/my Purpose is to be in worship...
that's what i realized...medicine man is a path, a vehicle, but Purpose is worship, is Surrender, is to share this, to be infectious in this...
goal this year? goals this year - to carve the path that i set forth on as an institution that generates land, house, village, school...
by practicing programs that are replicable, that offer the solution that the modern world suffers from narcissism, individualism, lack of community, of meaningful community, more than social media, more than meetups, real relations...people respond to money, to putting in, to having an anchor that will commit them...institutions facilitate social relations, community...the longer the institutional requirements, the deeper the opportunity for relationship.
intentions to manifest this year: the wellness gift - curating nutrition - bi-monthly...the poetry workshop - once a week for five weeks....panchakarma - 4 days a week 8am-7pm...herb walks and medicine making...wife n kids...home with fam on top of fam...village...growing in yogum...
so...home owner...marriage...kids...cooperative living....excelling entrepreneur launches that solve the issue of pain that stems from the mind to the body from the body of earth and society to the physical body of self - by fostering touch between us - between me as your medicine man and you, between us by building poetry tribe, herbal tribe, yogi tribe, wellness gift...doing these as part of growing that which i love - depth in yogum, in asana, in pranayama, in dhyna...
what are three things i can do towards fulfilling these goals?
what two things a month?
what one or two things a week?
marriage - actively engage in meaningful social events, be forthcoming, put the word out to others, walk in the path of the Lover Jesus, practicing fearless unconditional love, taking masculine steps in proactivity instead of waiting to be acted upon. waste no time in doing this. attend a social event a week, four a month...schedule this...pencil it in...use a calendar...sign up for forums that allow for exchange...seek Guides who can facilitate spiritual physical connection...
house - determine where would be ideal, what would be ideal, set forth a vision for a spot...put forth intention for this...then move fwd in getting this...in looking for this...get pre-approved for a mortgage, determine paperwork and logistics necessary to purchase, actively see houses, develop questions, and research them, look for a place in an area that i want to situate in, take trips to areas that are of interest, where i can work and live...place downpayment...daily: i can research things i need to know about purchasing a house. once a week: i can look at homes, and learn what questions to ask through this process...talk to people who have already purchased property/ies...monthly, i can goto the bank, find out about approval, preapproval
cooperative living - once a month, visit an intentional community. see if there are any that fit. if so, then get the house here...
wellness gift - survey, put it together based on principles of ayurveda, run it by people in positions to order bulk, determine logistics based on this, fine tune and connect with small and big artisans in wellness...
daily - survey, research the way others in industry have done it, if possible see if you can meet/interview some...contact organizations/companies/independent artisans for product, assembling gift...
weekly - meet/correspond with heads of institutions - determine logistics of selling, determine tax, paperwork, liability, business needs ; develop materials as an opportunity-package for artisans and companies...
monthly: get 200 orders before spring equinox, 500 by summer, and 1000 by fall...sell to partners, get sales team, publish pedagogical books.
other to do's: business partner...potential partners to purchase...
poetry healing program - once a week, 8 weeks, enroll 5-7. develop curriculum. practice curriculum. put together teas and fine tune. do three times. publish poetic prose.
panchakarma - set up shop in a space that i can rent out for a month or two at a time, do this in different regions...sell several units...determine business end of things - paperwork, mission, pricing, marketing materials, clear program, feedback forms, intake forms, handouts, materials needed to perform the act - start with what you have...see if you can collaborate with others...
work with what you have
yoga anatomy & physiology course - design curriculum...practice it...align with asanas and breath...align with pancha-maha-koshas...set up shop...collab with yoga studios...do some videos...
herb walks in nyc parks - learn the herbs here...get books...talk to those who know...
herbal medicine making course - create curriculum...practice...partner...sell units...set up shop...
stick to one thing at a time...give it your all...focus...focus...
this year my intention is to focus, to change my storyline from someone who lets circumstance happen to someone who creates circumstance...circumstance that is aligned with Purpose and vision...does this in a way that is money-smart...that walks the two worlds my boy who has grown cynical and paranoid and hateful now, once told me during his more quiet moments - "the elders," he told me "taught us to walk two worlds - the Real world, and the false reality".
the false reality is babylon. is ephemeral. requires facilitation/Guidance to flow out of of, otherwise hurt, pain, destructiveness...now i get it!!! we are intricately tied into each others lives because each of us are One, and each of us make up the whole that is One, and that when we are in departure, any one of us, we all suffer, and that no matter how good you are or i am and no matter how much meditation and yoga, and laughter in your own life...tears will flood your insides if you don't have inner peace, and inner peace requires us all to be good, to be in unison...in this way, we have to care about the next person, whether the next person for you represents that which is anathema to your perception or not, whether, for instance, for me, whether they represent racial/religious/ethnic/linguistic - hegemony, hatred, imperialism, colonialism, etc...or not...
so...as i walk this path, stay open...give...build lines of communication, be clear about lines of laws set by ALLAH, the One, the One-ness...
all praise is due...
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