all praise is due fo you for you in my life, if you are reading this, if you have heard, if we never met, if you are the one dropping bombs and the one being bombed...i thank u for giving me the reflections to understand a little deeper what homeostasis may mean...prayers for the struggle...
i put on a random sermon this morning, during the space between asana practice and meditation...into my meditation, i found my heart anticipating the words of the faithful (iman)...he said that during times of doubt, during times of confusion, to ask for Guidance. this is done through a special 2 rakat movement of connection (salat), followed by asking (dua)...
but, the faithful said, asking from a place of disconnect will lead to greater nebulousness...that is, the special prostration in Connection only makes sense when there is already Connection. and in turn, this prayer is rendered unnecessary. that is, looking to go into an inversion after practicing asana a few times a year will amount to little or no result, and, in fact, it can lead to injury...
the Connection, allows for clear channels of communication to occur, to receive, to recite. recite! recite! recite!
in the absence of Connection...no words come to mouth...in the absence of Connection the west and its loquacious expertise spews forth like daggers - false idols we pray to every time we celebrate "experts", celebrities and brand names, designer coats, and shoes, and perfumes...
Connection, the faithful reminded us, me, is to do that which is decreed - good deeds, practice compassion like an asana sequence, give, be open hearted, open walleted, open in your benevolence - to do and do with humility - what your right hand does, your left shouldn't know about - shhhh...
so i ask...as i get into the asana of karma yoga - of selfless service to community, of giving, of dealing with social justice...all praise is due...what is the sequence? which asana first? what will warm me up? what is the surya namaskar of giving, of doing good deeds - to smile, to keep low eyes, to not seek Glory...
afterall, the faithful reminded me, and all praise is due for this mufti...that asking like all else, like the moon sun and planets, are within the Laws...to ask is rooted in a couple of key questions - will it bring you Closer: 1. in Spirit 2. in the earthly realm 3. in the hereafter...
i must say...in growing deeper in my meditations of ancient mathematics, without literature, with only Quiet reflection in the big bang of subway movement, i have grown to understand the importance of the after life, i have come to realize the centrality of the after life, in ancient cultures...the ancient egyptians dedicated their entire lives to the after-world. when i say entire lives, i mean it from my context of coming to believe that this is it, that this is the biggest deal, that we only have one life, that we should enjoy every moment...the people of the vedas dedicate their lives to releasing karma of past deeds, of liberating from this body. i understand this in the meditation of vipassana - Quiet...
i unlearned this in celebrating loud, flamboyance, of watching myself identifying so heavily with oppression, of being what the hurt lashed out in condemning those with my names, color, past, etc., that i sought to be seen by them, to be acknowledged by them...of course the only them was my own hurt - hurt seeking validation from hurt...i celebrated those who were also loud and branded...
...the truth is in the Quiet...
i realize this in my young cousin fish, who teaches me what the path of Surrender means through his deeds, through his humility and selfless service - thank you young warrior...
the asana sequence is this - smile, connect eyes, hands together in my Highest to Yours, compliment from a place of sincerity, of depth (more than "your shoes are nice" - what's deeper about this person that You see...), salutations, peace and blessings, offer support in seeing through this person's Purpose...
i ask for clarity in the focal point of this path - if there was one thing - i do believe it's true - that the gut is the harbinger of much of the disease state, but i also recognize that the mind and gut can't be divorced, and that the mind, not the brain is the gateway to the realms, and through Connection with Spirit, with earth, we can be disease free. that is, the gut earth axis is learning to understand that earth is us and we are the earth and that to treat our bellies well means to treat the earth well, and when we don't, when we harm the earth, no matter how much good we do, we hurt ourselves.
i began thinking stress brain gut. then pain brain gut. but in meditating deeper on this, i realize that it's not just the gut. that much of the issues we face can be addressed with the gut. and it's not just the brain. that much of the issues we face may be the way we receive/process information. but instead, one of the greatest issues, is our disconnect from the unity of outside in and inside out...this is what allows for all the othering...so the gut earth mind axis...i'll have to ask Essence...
the question is what will bring me Closer, bring me closer to fulfilling my duties here, and close to a clear after-realm...?
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