the moon. it was the parts of a memory...flashes that came and left without requiring a second thought, as if it were so beautiful, recall was unnecessary. there was no deliberate pause this time. pause was just the nature of being. the fast required the slow down...all praise is due...
last full moon, i intended to let go of individual purpose, of just individualizing purpose, and instead, align Purpose with Glory, with that which serves, draws myself and others to One-ness...
what happened here was canada, was drawing up 8 workshops with the lens of we, of how badly we need each other, that our need is like lovers in that moment of lift, of wow, of wings fluttering in their belly and hearts, and lifting their feet off concrete, off the shackles of to-do's and appointments to draw highways to quantum physics...
we need each other, we need you to need you, to love you, but don't stop there...share the love...pay it forward, love the ones next to you, at home, in your building, block, subway, work place...Love...like the lover, lovers, in want, in need, in surrender to that feeling of wow, of High...
as without, so within...that was the theme, repeated by the couple who attended every single workshop, who in their forties stole glances, openly flirted, found ways to interlace hands throughout the weekend...
...for the circle of participants, our heart began to ache as time came to a close in our journey in healing, in exploring the ancient mathematics of healing...soon we would be off in trucks and planes and conversations of a past...soon i was back in the airport, in vancouver, finding a dead-end passage to squeeze my bones of airplane air, flowing methane out of my body, becoming a rivulet that little kids pointed to in recognition, said yoga...
...the intentions last so long as i recall them, so long as they are in the forefront of thought and subconscious...like many other things in my life - out of sight out of mind...
...i am out of my mind, almost, glimpses of going past anamayakosha, pranamayakosha, manamayakosha, vijnanyamayakosha, anandamayakosha....past subtle bodies, past confusing this mind with this experience...
...almost...for glimpses...during asana, during pranayama...during dhyna...during pratyahara...
this moon, this moon which was already a few days back...this moon i let go of waiting for things to happen - home - mainly home - it's at the center of my quagmire - in relation to work, relations, making medicinals, co-creative space, community, herbs garden, farming, self-sufficiency, ashram - and instead i am proactive, i make home...
...home, building, creating, in tangible terms of that which is intangible...actualizing actualization, instead of waiting for it to happen...
...doing this through decluttering, through taking micro steps, through risks, through being okay with the possibility of falling...inshALLAH...
...for You...yeah...for You...shine, shine, diamonds and yellow...
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