...about Lovers... who are examples?... who have been examples?... i liked dani's fearlessness, how he was kind and charismatic and approached women... he was always with different women... he always knew the right things to say... but mostly it was his charisma, his charm, his ability to Connect... to be bold, to not be afraid... to be confident... these were traits i found admirable... and even though he was barely five feet tall, he was full of confidence... but i didn't feel a Connection with his way... in retrospect... it was outside the Way... it was from self-centeredness... from fulfilling desires... being in a carousel... being unaccountable...
...i admired doc... how he could've had almost any women he wanted but didn't... how discriminate he was... how he was good with being with who he was with... he didn't even seem to care that he could have anybody... he was just fully confident and humble... and Quiet... and accountable to his family and others...
...i admired eric... how in love he was with charlene... how charlene was his one and only love... how he was super good looking, how bright and kind he was... how polite and Loving he was... how anytime you talked to him he always pulled out a picture of charlene... how he was light on his feet and Always went out of his way to make you feel good, say hi, and had no qualms about being transparent about who he was with... how he was the opposite of sleazy and self-interest...
...in history there are few people i can think of... that i've read about... there is Mostly an idea i've had in my head... and idea of my own making... fictional...
...the idea is this... that there is a Lover... and this Lover is Connected deeply to Source... to Soul... and is present... and fearless... and vulnerable and walks into discomfort... and Works... and moves from a place of transparency and wanting to Work through things vs avoiding things... the Lover is in a space of trepidation... impacted... breathes and checks in... nods... Listens... asks what am i afraid of and walks in... the Lover is Confident in what he Knows... Knowing what he Knows are Spiritual Truths... he speaks from a place of Love... not control... Knowing that the only Truth is Unconditional Love... Loving not to control but to Honor... to Love... to Give... the Lover is transparent... and instead of avoiding transparency... embraces it... even if it is uncomfortable... the Lover lets go of that which keeps him from Higher... the Lover lets go of being consumed... of performance... of trying to impress... the Lover goes deeper in Love with his Lover by going deeper within... through his Work... the Work is in his art... the outcome of Love...
...the Lover isn't afraid to call... the Lover isn't afraid to ask questions... the Lover moves and speaks from center and not ego... from One-ness and not self-centeredness... the Lover presences his thoughts and feelings from a place of exploration not reaction... not pride... not trying to convince... not control...
...the Lover Loves...
...what do i need to learn to Be the Lover?... to ask what am i afraid of and what is discomfort at every juncture... to immediately follow this up with breath... deep breathing... with Centering... with Connection and speaking and moving from this pause/Link/place of Connection...
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