all praise is due...even when the skies are grey and the clouds thick with wonder...all moments pass, whether you are eating or fasting...
...this is often the lesson in asana practice, that you are in virabadrasana, and your thighs begin to burn, and your arm starts to shake, and you just want it to be over....this is where asana is merged with pratyahara....concentration...what is your point of concentration? what are you focused on? if you are focused on pain, on the sensations of your body, you will buckle, you will grow irritable, you will desire the relief...if your pratyahara is as witness, as witness to this body, to observing it, to maintaining breath, to focusing on center...a letting go occurs...depth grows...
...concentration leads to dharana, to a state of meditation...
...if you are seeking glory...
...if you are seeking Glory...then shhh..then work...the watch, then witness....
...work...today's lesson in day 3 of the no food portion of the fast, is that the streams flow, maintain a focus in their flow, work in community with the rocks, valleys, ground that holds them...
...todays lesson is that Love is not an act of emotion but an act of aligning with Essence...Essence is ubiquitous...and the alignment happens through work...
...this is why the greatest moments of ecstasy a human can experience, in my estimation, is when they work through something tough, and reach the other side of it...
...for instance...getting through a jail sentence, or surviving a brush with death, or a loved one surviving a brush with death, or a challenging yoga sequence, pose, a challenging hike, a presentation, an album release...a party...there is the fear of what will happen, of the unknown, of what if no one...what if i get locked up...what if i look stupid and fall in this pose...what if i don't make it...
...the what-if's are the voice of doubt that keep us at bay, that keep us from doing, that keep us looking for lines of safety to withdraw into...but that might ultimately land you in jail, if you are facing it and not working to get yourself free...that might get you killed, if you are facing death and not working to survive...that will keep in mediocrity...
...what steps you up is doing, is trying, is giving it your all...from a place of Greater than you...for the sake of balance...of humanity, of trees, of tribe - your folks...
...this fast brings up these moments of emotion...of sinking in them...of defaulting on safety...but the discipline, the fact that i said it, keeps me going, just like when i practice asana...it's something i do...its not for anyone...but how can it benefit others? how can it help...?...rubicks cube...unlock the body by letting go of fears, of shame, of attachment...
and that's what i was telling emperor, when he was asking me what i was fasting for...hadn't thought about it....or no one else had asked...i said it was seasonal, to align with our planetary spheres, to let go and shed and shift, just as our planet was, in it's tilt of axis, as the weather grows from hot and dry to cooler and rainy...an opportunity to release the fire built up this summer, the one that led me to scorch my path...release fire and grow equaninmous...
...in aligning with the planets, with our earth, i am aligning with trees and rivers, and Mahat, Brahama...that which is Always...in stepping away from food, from eating, i am able to witness the body's cravings, desires, the notes it makes about all the things it will eat, it wants to eat...watching the emotional body...how strong it is...the sense of emotions is strong and dangerous when it is tied to ego, when it becomes an identity...
...in the letting go...the focus is on the work...on the importance of the work...not competition, but the work that needs to get done...work...like your life depended on it...with great pause, and Peace...
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