...history is written in the genetic engagement of movement through this path... in asana... i am moving in sequences of actg codon specific to this Way of enlightenment taught from guru to student for generations...
...written in these feet are the words of sun warriors virabadrasana-ing through to becoming moon, half moon, crescent moon, and a star... the symbol of the universal path of Surrender that commemorates, today, the Warrior prophet ibrahim, who after 90 years of life gave birth to his first child, a son... the son, upon growing into the age of manhood (in those times -12)... was asked to be sacrificed in abraham's conversations with Essence... torn, tortured, in grief... he went ahead with it... laid the child down to be beheaded and when, in the course of lifting his axe, was told to stop...
...how tuned are you to the signs, the words... the language of the One?... abraham who is so revered in the torah, bible, qur'an... would be in 25-life in our modern era... most of the prophets would...
...what is the True voice saying, revealing?... when do you hear it?...
...when i asked ALLAH (in the space of rahmadhan - rahma - returning into the womb) how i can fall in Love with You... ALLAH conveyed through signs... that i Love the Creation... the Creation being you and you and you...
...and when i asked how do i do this... ALLAH conveyed... through Surrender... through being fully in a space of Surrender - and the Truth will manifest...
...i realized this when i was in sajdah, head to the ground... with dozens of others who were in a space of fasting 21-22 hour days, with me... people who drove cabs, who cooked food all day on the street for others, and pushed their cart, and not an ounce of water until sun down... and they lived... and i lived through my 3 hours of asana practice... and my hours of bodywork on others... i was renewed in strength by the evening...
...so now... i've been told that the Way to Connect meaningfully... by way of Surrender... is to do Work... is to Work apart from you, but as Work that needs to be done...
...at the moment, i am in college town bagels , at the cornell campus... electric with the start of a new semester... and the radio here blares skinny love... bon iver... a song i can listen to on repeat... that resonates with darkness in me... that part of me that is uncertain about this life thing... not getting it... feeling like an alien in my skin... in this body that goes through space and time without any choice of control... who witnesses generation after generation go through high school, college, get out, get jobs, or try to... party... drink... get married... divorced... make it... drug up... liquor up... prayer up...
...the song brings up something deep from within me... resonance... bon iver's work is so deeply personal that there is resonance... that there is a cord that strikes for anyone who listens to it... this is true with music that is honest... that comes from a place of depth - gangstarr, alice coltrane, nusrat fateh ali khan, peyote songs, hamza el din, sylvio rodriguez...
...what is so deeply personal to you... so much so that you are close to afraid of it...?... afterall fear is a current within Love... it is the trepidation you feel when meeting a Lover... one you have anticipated seeing all week... all praise is due... all praise is Always due...
...walk into it... embrace it... my kindred yusef tells me that we often ask for fulfillment of our Purpose, without asking for the tools that will get us there...
...i believe we have these tools... that they are within our grips... that they reside within us... and it is just a matter of getting out of our way... getting the ego that wants things to be perfect to get out of the way... getting the fear of failure... of judgement... of this and that... that is premised on ego... to get out of the Way...
...my Purpose to be fulfilled would look like... hmmm... less gargantuan than i thought... less change the entire world... less the super-hero, che/malcolm/gandhi-complex ... i developed this complex in thinking that this is what i have to do - me - change it - and nothing can be done until it is big enough...
...all along dhaka... everyone is hustling... all along bombay and rishikesh... people are tryng to make it - for their families, for their survival.. for capital gain... for change... but these folk... whether you or i agree... are playing...
...players in the game... i want to play... i want o shoot and if i miss... i want to keep shooting... i want to shoot not to make it... but to play with you... to be in a space with you... so that i learn how to shoot better, and play... can you be a player if you are not playing?...
...the Work that i have the tools to do... that is not about me... is self-Love = Self-Love... is the Work towards this path... is getting Closer... is building community through health - body mind spirit - Real meaningful community... through cooking, eating, movement... experiencing it in Your body... and this is avialable to my indigenous mom and cornel students... movement... Connecting with Oneness... there is no class/race/ethnic/ability divide in this...
...asana then would look like the water falling from the cliff at the waterfalls in taughnok state park... and i would go deeper from this place of Surrender... until i get to the next level... the game is infinite... without end... Work... is to share the product...
...get your Work out there not because of you but because it needs doing... and you doing it...
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