...attended the last one... he scooped me... asked about the dinner the night before... the potluck i invited him to... the one out in trumansburg...
...nah... didn't go...i said... didn't have a ride... i'd texted him to see if he would want to go, so we could ride together... also texted my homegirl... neither of them were interested or could make the time...
...what i'm hearing, he said... is excuses...
...i almost responded... almost reacted with context - i don't have a car... that's why i asked you and i tried reaching out to....
...but that would've been ego speaking... that woulda been me trying to make a point... me of the lower me... me of the one stuck on an identity and defending that false-self... so caught myself... and just listened ... and glad i did...
...you are telling me what you couldn't do... but what could you have done?... if you really wanted to go... if you really had to go...???... i mean... think about your resources... you know me... i have an extra car sitting around that no one is using...
...he was right... i was making excuses... i am making excuses now... i'm living in a perpetual series of excuses... one after the other... and you know this... you know it to well... cause you may be too...
...what is it that you want to/need to be doing that you are not... why?... what are you waiting for? what has to be right? what are the missing pieces...?... and by you not doing it... by you not doing that thing that your heart and soul are tugging at... that is telling you that it's important to get done... what happens to the world?... what happens to those around you and those around them?... after all we are all here for a reason... and if you aren't doing your share... then the rest of us suffer...
...i want to get medicine out to get people off the death-pital system... to get people into a state of health - of Real well being - of Connecting with Essence and trusting in what Essence has provided through herbs, food, body, breath, each other - community ... i Connect with you through this medicine by making it easy to use, tasty, pretty, affordable, and yet expensive... like the jeans you adorn... these expensive, these is red bottoms, these is bloody shoes...
...i want you to treat your body like it's expensive... and if you do... if you invest all this money on yourself and go through this and Connect... then i will give you all your money back... i don't want it... never did... and then Connect with the Body - me and her and him and they and... cause we need each other... bad... real bad...
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