...all of it... all... of ... it...
...a whirl... round and round... sensory stimulli... we live for it... we modern apes... arangatanguing from one to the next... matcha latte to mocha to pumpkin spice lime summer special...
...we in a midst of desire... of wanting to know it all... to experience it all... running as fast as we can... imagining the people we talk to on occasion are our community and they are rooting for us from the likes on social media of our posts... a god complex...
...jesus... muhammad... moses... krsna... gautama...
...the rishis brought us messages... the journey trampled on itself...
...even before tattoos became a thing... everyone i knew was running down a television dream...
...switched the boxxx off after my thighs burned for 2 dimension...
...ran into a wall after thinking i'd reached siddhis...
...annoyed by violation... without boundaries nothing happens...
...this past month... this past lunar... i made the move from ithaca to philly to nyc to provo... saw a few clients... did some workshops... watched kev remerge in drown... sank with him when i heard her lack of boundaries led to going along with trauma... rekindling... building on... and me having a sense of being violated... not getting paid by the yoga studio for a whole two months... need to cash that check
...this full moon... what i learned is to be empathetic means to consider context... to let go of what keeps me separate... to understand... from a place of depth... inquiry... Love... compassion...
...what i struggled with is expecting someone else to do the deed for me... to pause... to speak from within instead of from without... to have paused... to have gone deep into the moment... instead of chiding... instead of reprimanding... to pause and go deep inside and see what happens... to articulate this... from a place of pause and Love and Art... hey - i'm feeling violated right now because... are you okay with it?... if not then what made you do what you did?... if i didn't say anything would you have even texted?... i'm bothered by this and not sure what to do with it...
...be empathetic and honest... transparent... through pause... through taking a moment... through doing one thing... and nothing else... maybe building on doing one thing at a time by taking pause in that one thing... breathing it in... taking in the experience fully... like with writing and making a ring... and drawing... go deeper in by Tuning in deeper... go deeper in doing one thing at a time by taking a moment to breathe and Connect with the Lover in each instance...
...this month the yama i want to grow deeper with aporigraha - non-greed; non-hoarding non-gift taking - as i believe this will let me be of greater use to the world and those around me
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