...Always... it was Always You... then why do i forget?...
...if i know this isn't it... if i know this is just a moment... if i know that everything passes... if i know those i was intimate with... if i know that our levels of connectivity changed... if i know that the initial electricity became diffused... that our feelings changed... that no one but One... that we are no longer together... that u n me began and ended... then you... n butterflies... n then jealousy... n then apathy... n then game over... n then you... and wow... and man... n damn this is different... then gone... then you... and the tension... and the once in a while... and then connecting here and there... and wanting to fit you in... to make you mine... but you refused... and sadness... and frustration... and myopia... and then gone... and...
...time happens... and everything changes... jivamukti closed.. and i say la illaha illala... and another day gone... cause yesterday i was just trying to make it... yesterday i was just hoping the yoga and the culinary... and the siesta and shower... and journaling would keep anchored enough to keep from falling into the cracks... hitting the broken... floating in a 140 proof... tom and i didn't leave in time...
...but the why remains... and i would tell you if you told me this... to breathe... to be fearless... to embrace the discomfort... to let go of the ego... the complacency... the image... to call or text... if its fear of rejection if its wanting to save face... to build appearances... but to not call if this is the discomfort... to wanting to know... to seeking affection... to Know You Are Enough... as You Are in All... and through Loving ALL i find You... and through embracing individuals... idolize...
...so?... so be okay with being with you... with yourself... with yourSelf... Love... cry... be vulnerable...
...the most challenging times have been those most rewarding - deeply honest... and facing the consequence - and letting myself go through it... sis fr uptown... sis fr n.j... the homie t...
...roll with honesty... see what comes... stay focused on the Work... inshALLAH...
...if i know this isn't it... if i know this is just a moment... if i know that everything passes... if i know those i was intimate with... if i know that our levels of connectivity changed... if i know that the initial electricity became diffused... that our feelings changed... that no one but One... that we are no longer together... that u n me began and ended... then you... n butterflies... n then jealousy... n then apathy... n then game over... n then you... and wow... and man... n damn this is different... then gone... then you... and the tension... and the once in a while... and then connecting here and there... and wanting to fit you in... to make you mine... but you refused... and sadness... and frustration... and myopia... and then gone... and...
...time happens... and everything changes... jivamukti closed.. and i say la illaha illala... and another day gone... cause yesterday i was just trying to make it... yesterday i was just hoping the yoga and the culinary... and the siesta and shower... and journaling would keep anchored enough to keep from falling into the cracks... hitting the broken... floating in a 140 proof... tom and i didn't leave in time...
...but the why remains... and i would tell you if you told me this... to breathe... to be fearless... to embrace the discomfort... to let go of the ego... the complacency... the image... to call or text... if its fear of rejection if its wanting to save face... to build appearances... but to not call if this is the discomfort... to wanting to know... to seeking affection... to Know You Are Enough... as You Are in All... and through Loving ALL i find You... and through embracing individuals... idolize...
...so?... so be okay with being with you... with yourself... with yourSelf... Love... cry... be vulnerable...
...the most challenging times have been those most rewarding - deeply honest... and facing the consequence - and letting myself go through it... sis fr uptown... sis fr n.j... the homie t...
...roll with honesty... see what comes... stay focused on the Work... inshALLAH...
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