...be honest with Yourself...

...in the name of Essence... all praise is due... this moment is here...gone... a story of a moment at a cafe on the day that grassroots concluded...

...and the only plan that has been steadfast is bowing down to You... through prayer, asana, connecting with food and Your creation in a meaningful Way...

...i'm learning... and don't know if it's what i need to be learning... but learning...

...here is what i am learning... there are things we Are afraid of... many things... should we walk into all of them?... i am afraid of rolling down a mountain... should i do it?...

...i Am learning that we should embrace fears that draw us Closer to our Purpose... that there are people who will come into your life and they may stir you in certain ways... and the greatest opportunity is presented by way of emotions that well up... and it is safe to run away... but what is greater is to confront them... to approach them... to be completely honest with them and your self... and this will get You through... this will grow You...

...and if You continue to have the same challenges and issues with others... then ask yourself what about me is leading me to feel this way?

...afterall.. it is easier to focus on others... on what about them?... about that person...?... but it is you/i that assess, evaluate as pleasure or pain... if it is pleasure- yay!!! - if it is pain - no!!!...

...what is the pain you are running from?... perhaps it may be that you are attempting to control a situation... what a great opportunity to let go... perhaps your sense of being dishonoured stems from being your expectation for being treated differently... let go of your ego... what if your ego wasn't in the way?... what would the situation look like?...

...all conflict poses opportunities... for you to grow deeper in your journey... for you being honest with yourself and with others... if someone constantly brings about hurt in you... look at why... instead of looking at that person...

...embrace fear in every situation... but Work towards Your Purpose... let the journey of embracing fear and being present be the end... what if this was the end...?... perhaps you would engage your energy in a Way that was more meaningful... perhaps you would realize you have wants that are okay and that another may not be able to fulfill and its okay to be honest with them and yourself... and let go... and do it from the point of you... and not a judge of them...

...i want you and you don't want me in the same way... and i would be more injurious then beneficial to our relation... and i would like to spend my energy connecting with someone who feels mutually... as i can't convince you of anything... nor do i want to... and who you Are is beautiful... it just doesn't align with my Way... and i want to wish you peace in yours...

...so that's it.. be honest with yourself, as you embrace fear... be meaningful with Your time and others... and let boundaries come not from a place of anti- anyone but an embrace of You... and growing deeper in this embrace...

...stay focused on Your Work... do it with worship... and those who You must align with will... and those who detract you from the path... embrace with Love... and honesty... and what comes up for you... and let go... and continue to Work with focus... so at the end of the day, you can answer the question ALLAH will ask you after all this - how did you spend your time today? - with full-heartedness and a sense of completion...

...afterall... 1980's 90's 2000's 2010's... grade school... high school... college... all of it... people... ex's... moives... all of it passes... so Love... fully... with focus on Your specific task... be honest... with yourself... and others... as you seize the opp to grow deeper in what comes up in the face of fear... and let go....