...september... 2018... september marks new beginnings... for those of us permanently scarred by school... by the beginning of a school year... by the anxiety this would create... there were those who loved it... there are those that love it...
...new generations... old generations... and somehow we occupy space together... how?... just a few years ago you were complaining about your teachers and parents and adults and now you have entered into adulthood... entered into being seen as old by high schoolers... even past college... even past the age of proximity to youth... and you are conflicted between worlds...
...and that's just it... the fact that this is not it... that this is a realm is clarified through the occupation of multiple generations within the same time and space... you who are 7 and starting second grade are in the same earth as you who are 16 and starting junior year in high school, and you who are in your last year in college is in the same space as someone who is leaving there first significant job out of college... and you who are getting married for the first time at 29 are in the same planet as someone who is getting divorced after 21 years of marriage...
...and there are walls... parallel universes... generations consumed in their generation and traveling like a belt of asteroids past another generation... each of us consumed... each of us under a spell... atleast this is the case through college... and then it may last for a little while after... as you maintain relations with those you went to school with... and life happens... jobs, new people, more effort to maintain relations with friends from the past...
...life...
...back in nyc... have said that a dozen times in just the past few years...
...back and immersed in ashtanga... and goals are good a ted talker said... but it's important to focus on the habits that will get you there... a translation of the ancient math which says the journey of a 1000 steps begins with one step... and that the destination is in the journey...
...yogi code... yogi life means being fearless... early to bed early to rise... deep in practices - asanas, pranayamas, dharna, dhyna, kriyas, prayer, veganism..
...it is good to pray alone... better to pray in community... fast alone... but break fast in community...
...the wisdom of the lived example of the guru and Noor... muhammad (s.a.w)...
...this month's intention is to let go of control... and i'm understanding that not all control is bad... manipulation is... but controlling posture, food intake, etc., could be a good thing... and what i'm learning is to Be it... to Be that which you are seeking to control towards goodness... that is, if you are trying to control your posture... instead be tadasana... if you are trying to limit your eating... to prevent overeating... then be yogi...
...models... having an image of that which you wish to be helps... if you want to be someone who eats light, feels light, is humble, is compassionate, is fearless, is Purposeful, then consider someone who fits this image... who embodies this... for me... the persons who come to mind when i think of a true Lover: compassionate, fearless, urgent, patient, a worker, diligent, Loving, an artist, inspiring, in wonderment... is jesus and the prophet muhammad... they lived their Truth...
...my model for ashtanga and yogi are others who are doing it... who show up to the shala everyday... who are disciplined in their practice... who give it their all...
...as tiring as it is... it also feels good to become part of this community... if be proximity... and be inspired by their practice...
...i'd like to find this in veganism, traditional medicine... and in the path of Surrender...
...so build the habits to Be... then... in this space...
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