Friday, April 16, 2021

...day 3 ramadhan... 4.15.21...


 

...in the name of ALLAH... the Most Compassionate (Rahman), the Most Merciful (Rahim), the Holder of ALL (Malek), the Purifier (Qudus), the Source of Peace (Salaam), the Source of Faith/Trust (Mumin), the Incorruptible/Pure (Muahaimin)... 

...day 3 has led me in a state of humility... in taking much of the prescriptions of rahmadhan as recommended... without mixing and matching... as i tend to do in my day to day with my feet and hands holding the traditions of vedas... the gospel... the torah... the tipitaka... yoga sutras...  

...as per the recommendation of the guru goenka-ji of the buddhist faith... i am focusing solely on ramadhan this month... beyond just the no food and water... making the intention to fast every night before going to bed... bowing down 5 times a day... sharing the food i make with those around me... even when i find my ego saying - they're not fasting and here i am cooking for them... reading Qur'an... listening to Qur'an... reading islamic texts - the 99 names of ALLAH... juz 30... the medicine of the prophet... listening to lectures from humble scholars like sheikh hamza yusef...   reciting dhikr after maghrib... saying less... 

...some of what i'm noticing is growing deeper in Quietude... in realizing greater depths made available this month of fasting... for instance fasting from news... although i barely listen or watch or read new... i do listen to headlines from democracy now daily and when in the car listen to npr... but have put these aside... i have also put off social media... i'm really only on i.g... and although i don't post often... i do review it often... what else do i find comfortable... that i relish in... that is not growing me... that i can give up/fast fromt his month... what would i like to grow into... metamorphosize.... that i can do more of daily?... these are some fo the questions that i am sitting with...

...one huge takeaway from al baqarah this time around was the state of taqwah... of being beyond expectation from ALLAH to fulfill your sense of respect/fulfillment... as ALLAH provides hardship for you to grow deeper in consciousness to grow aware that this is not it... this is jsut a short part of it... hence inna illahe wa inna illahe rajun - from ALLAH we emerge to ALLAH we return... 

...another takeaway from this surah is the need to fight... even though you'd rather avoid it... to fight because it is your duty... this makes me think of the Work i have before me and to fight my alshia (laziness- as my ammu would say) to Actualize this... 

...a revelation i had is that as the Qur'an tells us the sun appears to rise in the east and settle in the west... as it is the earth afterall that is spinning that makes this appearance... and the sun appearing to rise in the east is because we are spinning from right to left.... which may be why the writing of the Qur'an is from right to left... 



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